
I love wildlife, especially birds. I love watching the little robin in my parents backyard come and feed. I love the sound the birds make early in the morning. My daughter was getting to an age ideal for having a pet, and I settled on getting a pet budgerie. I wanted a blue one. I went to the pet store and was given strict instructions on how to clean the cage and keep a happy bird. My daughter named it ‘love heart’ and it made the most beautiful chirping sound.
The girls played around the budgie cage in our kitchen, it was a beautiful scene. They were fascinated, communicating about the bird, even when my youngest, being two at the time was just starting to speak.
Disaster struct pretty quickly however, when, after a week of being in the home the budgie fell to the bottom of the cage and writhed around for fifteen minutes. It then stopped moving and I knew that it had died. I didn’t want the girls to see the distressing sight. So I picked up the bird, who felt lovely and soft to touch , placed it in my best Tupperware container and put it in the wheelie bin.
The girls came home and Belinda squealed when she saw the empty cage, ‘mum the birdie.’ I replied by telling her the bird had flown away when I was cleaning the cage. She became quite philosophical replying that this was probably better if the bird was free. I was sorry the bird died and sad I lied to Belinda. I wish it had flown away. It was distressing to see it at the bottom of the cage.
It made me think of my own mortality. That we don’t know when or where we will die. I’m hoping it will be when I’m old with family around me. But that often doesn’t happen. Covid has made me sad with stories where loved ones have been separated. I’ve always believed in the soul, where it goes who knows, but maybe like the bird it actually flys away to another life, and it’s just the body that remains. Maybe it’s just an analogy, but maybe it’s closer to the truth than I realised so not a lie after all. It was my husband who suggested we tell them that. Bye bye love heart, fly safe..


